who said that

who said everything
happens for a reason not
marilyn monroe

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that which does not kill
us makes us stronger another
stupid saying

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everytime i hear
these idiotic expressions
infuriates

until a few months ago, i thought “everything happens for a reason” was some religious saying. then i discover marilyn monroe quoted this,from probably someone else in this lifetime. people give her credit.

it was probably charles lederer , screenwriter ,who said this first, not the heavens, a human person.
people have been fooling me, saying this to me , all of my life .
lederer was jewish and irish ,so why do people always use this to try to convert me.

what in the world would marilyn monroe know about philosophy. neither do i, but heaven help the next person , who says this to me. you guessed :out the window they go.
i mean if you break both legs in an accident ,then you are in pain for the rest of your life, you are weaker.
you have a new fear of cars. i have never broken anything, but i have been in so many car wrecks, i think i have the right to say this.

if it doesn’t kill you over & over ,you don’t become stronger, but angrier, fearful,sad…maybe if it happens once.but the expression doesn’t say once. it is used in the plural ,whenever i hear this.

i place them together , because they go together. they are said at the same time, even though Fredrich Nietzsche said the latter.


* i wasn’t going to use this today & then three minutes ago, some psychopathic coach on law and order SVU just said “what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger”,so now i’m mad and i have to say this. that coach belongs under the prison. i am so tired of all the sociopaths on tv.

i’m going to make a tv show where nothing bad ever happens. everyone is always happy. no one is ill.an entire channel is what i want.

Jesus didn’t have a pillow commercial

wikipedia
7000 BCE
pillows invention

man on tv states
why you should join their church
he had no pillow

fibromyalgia
my first painful thought
then is he mishuginah

(not about pillow
but what he’s talking about
why go to his church)

(not the church next door
or the one across the street
two miles down the road)

how could people sleep
watch someone come ask me why
i said BCE

egyptians had pillows
3500 BCE
years before

ask dot com says so
this would be funny if it
wasn’t haiku month

i have twelve pillows
and i’m still not comfortable
missing my feathered

if he is correct
good reason to join his church
i have no answer

thankful wasn’t there
no car wrecks or toxic mold
still i’d shoot myself

betting no guns yet
no AC,computer,bath
tv plane music…………

Dr. Livingstone I presume

winter olympics
promised to regale me with
stories of china

only receiving
one story great wall of china
and jade bracelet

then declaring
take his photographer to bar
where he would exclaim

“damn my girlfriend has
some big ass tonsils” then
he laughed hysterically

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calgon, mr bubble, ivory snow take me away

a small interruption in summer, brought to you by dove & murphy’s law. yesterday, i find it hard to sleep , because latin pop music was coming from the living room. someone has stolen my jazz station.
a normal, average day ,not unlike any other ,since the 8th of december, 1999, hanukkah. normal as in murphy’s law.
fourteen months of peaceful jazz to sleep with…who changed channel 36 to 45 & now it says no signal?
no time for that now.what the devil is wrong with my arm.oh ringworm how nice. bosco, ottie, gracie …they blame dogs?

you have to read this funny.once a dr , an osteopath or something told me i had feline leukemia. i laughed , but it was the only time in my life i had a cat. (he didn’t know anastasia was living under my house, so i put her on the screened in porch & fed her every day.when she became pregnant this cat person told me we should put her in the warm garage .when we found no kittens, we took anastasia to the vet, who laughed because anastasia was a boy the entire time). doctor or whoever you were ,don’t you think i have enough diseases without this feline thingy…
so we have a dog a cat & there was the deer who apparently gave me lyme disease when i was 7 but i don’t find out until it’s too late ,resistant in 2011 & the mosquitoes dr. cheney & NIH blame for CFIDS in st. thomas in 1983.

so,it was supposed to be the last warm day,however the wind is a warm 17 mph without gusts & the weather channel is only 10 degrees off guessing. at 11 a m it begins pouring like a hurricane & last night i find a very wet ceiling , after bossy fixed the roof.you would think the worst thing today would be knowing you can’t go outside for 4 months, but now ceiling can turn to mold .

i already needed a tranquilizer to be aggravated by the new moving company,after spending months with mary & before mary ,they gave me paige…eighteen email with mary about complications.can anyone dust.i left 9 years ago….don’t bring the tv it weighs 400 pounds & takes 4 people to lift.it got wet in the moving truck during a hurricane in 99……but that’s another story…after 2 months, something happened to mary & now stepford wives keep answering my questions as hi new person we will be glad to give you an estimate.. hello mary did that a long time ago.we are way past that……..two months wasted.

then ,what appears in the kitchen ,ants.i want to say i can’t believe this, but yes of course,my life has been a soap opera since i was eighteen , who am i kidding 14 years, 24/7 but really ,since one week ,after 12th grade.
i have an entire story about ants, i want to say october the 20th..i know now how & why the ants appear.

then i write my brother about signing contract .how can that be anything but tension.while b/p is already jumping out of your chest,let’s write a new moving co., storage co…

i wish mc donald’s would say you deserve a break , but no, so i apparently didn’t have enough on what’s left of my brain & tell my realtor ,sure yall come on over tomorrow & we’ll make an offer on a condo.

it’s tomorrow ,so at 9:49 a m & bossy decides to try breaking in & spray pesticide… 2 simple words no chemicals…
the owner & i had an agreement i can only move in if no pesticide… exterminators put key in door every 2 months,9 a m / nightgown & say we will write it down , but bossy said it’s up to him…this is like the 7th time…there would be no ants,except for the m&m fiasco, but i spray tobasco sauce.fourteen months of bossy literally breaking in the other condo.i’m asleep . then he pretended the a c leaked instead of the roof, causing me to leave for days .. then he said he fixed the roof , but obviously not.

technically he is breaking in , but mentally he truly broke in last september & scared me half to death, when i had just really had 5 people break in , in maryland & really had ptsd. murphy wouldn’t let him him break in , if i wasn’t already afraid of this.

then i go to universal orlando where police try to come in at 4 am also & how does a person who is ill from toxic molds have mold appear in every darn state they go to get away from it?
dr . says go to a new building,then 4 years later there’s toxic mold in maryland. florida it wasn’t toxic that i know, but mold…..myrtle beach – both condos.

oh and when i tried to leave my house in charleston, after racoons broke in , 2007, & after i fell down the stairs ,5000.00 /hospital, i was going back to virginia & the hotel i stay at had person after person reviewing that the hotel as having mold.i was going to rent a new apartment ,they built outside my bedroom & the lease said if you find mold & that’s when i threw it out the window.

cab drivers who took me to the dr every other day for 5 years told me about this woman who got sick from toxic mold ,like me ,at the hilton,across the street who got millions & all i got was 14 years of aggravation ,2640.00 a month health insurance & lawyers who said too complicated or they don’t know how & the statute of limitations ran out, when my real estate lawyer said she would have helped me.

so boss thinks it’s up to him. the very best thing that could happen would be choking & an asthma attack & then hospital.worst would be death.i am already about to throw him out the window for the sawdust in my lungs & waking at 8 am , 6 days a week,for 4 weeks.there are 4 people here & 80 condos, but he picks the ill person’s bedroom window & door to saw boards in front of….who else murphy? a very long 24 hours…

mr mishuginah II and bubbulah

picks up my shih tzu
they watch seinfeld together
make funny poses.

i take their photos
in my mother’s rocking chair
she sits on his head.

she allows posing
upside down in his arms
cradled close to floor.

way to watch seinfeld
piggy back on his shoulders
they are so funny.

then he says hello
sometimes during commercials
realizing i’m there.

he kisses my arm
like gomez adams but he
never kisses me.

day two calls doctor
article in newspaper
CFIDS contagious? ( see fids )

my doctor tells him
nine nine point nine percent sure
isn’t contagious.

doesn’t believe him
top doctor in his field
calls other doctors.

italian restaurant
said he loves me because i’m
friends with old people.

he’s cold at pizza hut
covers his head with coat
while we eat dinner.

D.C. three years later
seinfeld still on at seven
while we eat dinner.

still no hello until
commercials that’s when
i’m allowed to speak.

once instead of hello
he said you cook better
than my mother did.