you make every day of my life valentine’s day , not only february

~

february 2 2017
you were made for me
most wonderful kindest man
the entire world

sweet and wonderful
how you remember things
you don’t make mistakes

you wash the dishes
the kitchen is beautiful
i couldn’t do that

you can feel my pain
and you make it go away
the love of my life

we went to beach cove and you also carried heavy chairs and you spoke in poetry unintentionally, constantly for 10 minutes . one of the nine haiku ,i wrote down before i could forget was

once i made that move
indicating the dog’s lead
i had to take her

you said you would help me go back and read the writing and figure out what i wrote. you help me every day, with everything, and i love you dearly. you are my life. i have never had anyone help me with anything, except my mother and father.

feb 1 2017

we watch the young pope
and go to little river
you ask what i want

i wish i had told you where i wanted to go, when that was the wrong place , b/c they had closed 2 years earlier,but i am happy whatever we do and it was wonderful
lying in your arms ,watching tv and watching you do the funniest dance during the commercials.

feb 3 2017

“i wasn’t doing
a monkey impression , i
was just being me”

“it was a moment of self awareness that unnerved me”

“acting like ancestors”

you always seem to love,whatever i cook.i wish it was as good as you say, b/c you deserve the best food every day of your life, after what you have been through.you don’t want me to criticize it and you said the risotto alone, without the salmon and dressing would be a meal to most people….

feb 5 2017

i have decided
everything should be placed
in clean handkerchiefs

you are the funniest person, a comedian,a poet ,a writer , professor, explainer,a psychologist, a massage therapist, a fixer of everything, handsomest, kindest, a genius , the most beautiful, interesting ,calm voice and many, many other things every day of your life. you are also the most talented person .
i would never trade you for anyone or anything .

feb 6 2017
we had baked beans from england ,scrambled eggs, vegetarian sausage patties and wierd al yankovich for breakfast. you are an american now and grits.and he solved our only problem, he said when the food gets cold reheat it….don’t get upset ,reheat it.

feb 8 2017

i love how at the conway courthouse you said it wasn’t a waste of time, b/c we learned something.
we go to the beach and you give me your hat to keep the sun out of my eyes and i feel ugly, but you are magic and tell me it looks good. you know how to solve everything.
then you hugged me all night…we change sides back and forth, b/c our backs hurt, but i still think it’s the most wonderful life : anything with you is….also, you got me doughnuts at the store, you said i needed them.

The Only THING I NEED IS YOU.

feb 9 2017
so very sweet how you vacuum all the feathers from the quilt, wash dishes and eat a banana pancake b/c you say you knew i wanted you to and say to make it more even, but it’s not true. you do everything.i could never make it even. i wish i could make it more even .you take the best care of me

before dinner you said we have our own language. people wouldn’t know. we went to bed at 7:15 and watched beach pillows and peter coyote national parks. we are the first people to take pillows to the beach. i love how you cover my ears ,so i don’t hear the bad things and the other night you knew to cover my eyes. you hugged me tight and made a circle with your fingers to turn the other way, to the right and then you cuddled up close to my chalk outline. remember the street in brighton with the doggy chalk outlines.
at the end of beach pillows the lady was singing i really don’t know and you started singing neither do i and you sounded just like her.

feb 10 2017

we went to the beach and had a good time walking at briarcliff for half an hour ,until the wind blew the umbrella so hard, we had to go back and we were so tired.you said you enjoyed the walk anyway. so we went to beach cove and sat under the wind, in a different spot,by the pool and you said you loved the wrapped sandwich, in a napkin, b/c you didn’t have to worry about washing your hands. so i will wrap both halves…i don’t think i have been doing that,my brain…i love how you say things and know how to.i really wish i did, b/c i always feel bad the way i say them.
then we sat, where we enjoy sitting and you say something hilarious about the wind and also you found a gray sock somewhere today, funny, also…i can’t say.

then you accidentally say four haiku that i was fast enough to write and then this when i got home.i wish i had remembered everything & a fast typist knew shorthand:

you are not riding
the hobby horse the hobby
horse is riding you

the only way you
get good medical treatment
is to pay for it

the gulls are getting
exponentially worse now
every single week

i think it was a
territorial display
hubris staring

it isn’t even half of february or valentine’s day yet

feb 13 2017

(you always explain how you are feeling ,so i will understand and i think it’s the most wonderful thing when you do that or i would be sad thinking i was making you upset….
the histamines are making you not feel well. i tell you i wish i could do something to make you feel better and you say, again

just keep smiling at me like that
~

love of my life

~

computer screen black
no memory to speak of
repaired for short time

darling fiance
would be no life without you
the love of my life

you said we were closer than ever ,just the other day. you are the most patient person in the world with me. at the beach ,whenever i try to put my sandals back on, when you are ready to go, you always bend down, because you are the only prince charming, and help me put them back on, so i don’t have to bend back down. they say fairy tails aren’t true and then the stories turn out to be scary making the foot fit in the shoe, but you are truly real and the most wonderful man in the world.
and then you carry the giant, heavy umbrella and chairs and tell me to go ahead and whenever it looks like rain, you always notice and tell me to go ahead before i get wet. it’s just one of the 100’s of kind things you are and do everyday and i would love you forever no matter what.

i’ve been the luckiest person in the world ,since you found me . life was hell before you came here and it would be hell without you. you are a gift from heaven. i would never trade you for anything or anyone, for any reason ever. you are the most perfect person in the world for me.i believe G-d made us for each other. i didn’t know anyone so good could exist. every day of my life, you give me happiness…
we are both very grumpy from the horrible lives we’ve had ,before we met, but i understand and know you don’t mean it, just like i wish you knew i don’t mean the stupid stupid things i say. i want to make up for all the things i’ve said.
all i ever need and want to do is hug you, to be happy.i never want to let go. never want to go to sleep. you can’t imagine the happiness from hugging you and you hugging me…
the magic is always as wonderful as the first day. the magic is always there. nothing ever wore off for me,from the first day i fell in love with you. sorry that i hurt your back.

you take care of me ,when i had the asian flu and salmonella 3 out of 9 weeks, the last few months. you take care of me every day and make sure i don’t get hurt. you protect me , when
cars drive on red and we are in the street.you make sure i don’t lose things, in airports.

what do you do when you try to take a shower and the handle falls off in your hand.normally i would just cry, b/c i can’t call anyone and then you have to spend days looking on the computer ,who does that…i’ve never known anyone who could fix anything. you can fix everything: my life,
(the greatest minds at harvard literally couldn’t fix) and the handle .i bring it to you and say i’m sorry i broke this and you get up and say don’t worry and fix it and make me feel better,also. and the other day,when i burned my mother’s pot, you said they usually have to be thrown away and didn’t think you could ,but you fixed that too, b/c you knew it was sentimental…
i wish i could take everything back and not have ever said anything that was rude to you ever. i wouldn’t hurt your feelings or hurt you on purpose ,for anything in the world. you are the only person who never aggravates me. i don’t know how things sound, until i think about it later.they come out wrong.and then i get upset and want to spend the rest of my life trying to make up.
like the day ,you saved us in the woods,when we got locked in. i want to tell you how wonderful you are. how proud i am of you. how smart you are to get us out of there. we could have been eaten alive by a 50 foot alligator ,like the one we saw months later.but when we get to the hilton,i act so stupid about the lady smoking cigarettes. i have no idea why. what i mean to say,doesn’t come out.only stupid things do.i love how you held my hand all the way back ,by the ocean and talked the whole way,so the time went by faster on the long walk back, that wasn’t long enough.
i love how you sang your rosh hoshannah song through the short cut ,on the way back home , so i wouldn’t be afraid of the snakes.

i love your beautiful face and eyes,how you look down at me with your forehead on mine. it gives me chills.i love when you explain things to me and you are so kind ,the way you do it,nicely. you are a genius.i love to listen to everything you say and i always will.your monologues.no matter what you say ,it’s interesting. i love to be with you ,anywhere , no matter what we do.even when i have to stay in a hotel room, b/c it’s too cold to go outside for 3 months, b/c the government wouldn’t let you stay here longer…
i know i’m a lot of trouble. you have to spend months every day,looking for restaurants with soft seats and you never make me feel bad, b/c i can’t sit on hard …i feel bad that you have to.
every day , i have been and will be thankful for how you got a cab to pick us up next to the airport and the next time, you got that limo to come inside…i knew you were the most wonderful man in the world,when you did that for me and i would have done and would do anything for you.
you told me you were loyal.i promise i will never forget what you did for me. i knew you really loved me.

i love you in the dark at the beach and how funny you are and how you told me to look at the sky
,and the clouds and how romantic you are and how you take care of me and tell me not to pun you when you say look at the sky and to listen to every word you say and how you tried to explain sound waves and make dolphin hands to tell me why i can’t hear the saxophone. i love to try to take care of you. can’t imagine a greater purpose, in this world. it makes me very happy.nothing i would rather do.

you just said if i just keep smiling at you like that, that was all you need to be happy.i can’t tell you how wonderful, you make me feel ,when you said that and say things every single day.i knew you meant it. and i just want to hug you.
i love you more than anything on earth forever.

~

knock knock

for thirty five years
shave and a hair cut two bits
my father and i

shaving on one side
sensodyne on the other
knocking through the wall

singing in haiku
“i saw those harbour lights
knocking at my door”

paying him to sing
his birthday seventeenth
my birthday also

cherished brother three
they paid my father twenty
two dollars to sing

his favorite joke
two dollars to sing and
twenty to be quiet

yehudi was in
our “icebox” turning off light
refrigerator

you would have to guess
who’s on tv during dinner
“He’s on tonight”

tom jones glen campbell
kojak mannix columbo
barnaby jones

standing in doorway
on the way to dinner
dancing macarena

my mother’s cooking
makes you so happy you dance
before and after

even without salt
after his heart attack
i was ten years old

oven fried chicken
never having anything fried
still delicious

salt isn’t necessary
unless you have a
salt deficiency

and you can even
though it’s quite unheard of
these united states

chanukkahturkekahgibletkah

on the first day of hanukkah
my true duck will send to me
a round trip ticket to fly for free
join him at home in his palm tree
.
on the second day of chanukah
my true love will explain to me
how thanksgiving and chanukkah can be on the same day you see
and two lovely camels to wrap gifts and saute ghee
yes a big help to me
.
on the third day of hannukkah
my true love will cook for me
three somethings that contain no all er gy
no wheat no sugar, no eggs or soy & they’re glu ten free
they also should come in rhymes of three
.
on the fourth day of chanukkah
my true love bakes for me
four black and white cookies in the state of new jer sey
they don’t come from the south , not that i ever did see
wanted one since they were on seinfeld in a ba ker y
.
on the fifth day of hannukah
my true love grates for me
five potato latkes and one to hang on his tr ee
four black and white cookie
three foods allergy free
two camels sauteing ghee
and my duck waiting in his tree
warm paradise of the red sea

on the sixth day of hanukkah
my true love gives to me
six ipods he bought on the second day of hanukkah , yes black fri dy
(we don’t say day in the south but dy or some of us with accents sill y)
two for my camels,one for my duck and three for me
for home, land and sea
or maybe ipads actually
i forgot what he told me
forgot the difference, a little technical mishuggy

on the seventh day of channukah
my true love makes for me
seven spinning dreidels and a sho pping spree ee
wherever the dreidel lands he ki sses me
like an alle go ry
becuase he thinks it’s like a spin the bottle par ty
and that’s al right with me

on the eighth day of channnukkah
my true love brings to me
eight baby ducks and we wash them in i vory
no not dawn because they’re not greasy
then we have high tea
it’s so pepper min ty
we sit by the sea ,listen to sym phony
dolphin on chord of harp sy
tuna plie instead of play because they’re dol phin free
he pulls out the best gift and it’s not po ppy
hamantaschen with prune if you know my tummy
and a hanukkah filled with frui ty pas t ry
my mother loved jane parker fruit cakes from the A&P
and that’s alright too with me makes hanukkah christ mas y


*You can try to sing
To the twelve days of christmas
And you may succeed

II conscious pairings


show me a handsome man
and i’ll show you a woman
who loves him.

“show me a beautiful
woman i’ll show you a
man” who is tired.

six tiny birds
land on railing next to me
precise second

must remember me
yesterday fed rice krispie
cerael treats.

“what the heck was that
was windows xp skype
but how can it be

because you are here
yours doesn’t do that
helicopter taking off”.


what to buy the man
who has everything
a piece of the berlin wall.

sherman hemsley socks
but then HSN asks you
talk to sherman.

dolphin jazz

saxophone stops
that’s not country music
chef proposes

have some chicken
it’s vegetarian
“this out to gamecocks.

georgia on my mind”
vegetarian chicken
you guys crack me up.

“this song is called Sugar
Sugar is hard
and so am i”.

mullet are jumping
seriously liking song
much more than i do.

where did all the jazz go?
cartwheels around mullet
DOLPHIN ARE JUMPING!

undulating beams
watching dazzling creatures
twenty feet high.
“ `
“Kokomo” The Beach Boys

“We’ll Go Out to Sea
We’ll PERFECT our CHEMISTRY
Defy Gravity”

“Bodies in the SAND
We’ll Be Falling In Love
Down in Kokomo”.
` ` `
(quotes are actual
haiku comments from
saxophone player .
my Mother and my Sister
are Georgia Bulldogs
i’m a paladin.
no one knows what
that is but it’s purple
like the pill nexium).

Finally

Meercats

“sophie and wilson
can be together not be
caught by family”

did not know animals
were sociopaths
cat eat cat world

announcer translates
what grandma is thinking tonight
how does he know?

wants to kill her grandchildren
isn’t enough food
for her own babies.

seriously,she
knows the crop situation?
counted all the bugs?

well ha ha grandma
sophie and wison are happy
you threw her out.